Just some thoughts and feelings

Same old shit Time after time, still the same thing, over and over again. I'm sick and tired of this. When can this stop. Started out so determined and confident. Then end up being beaten up by it. When will I ever learn that it's ok to just let me have a little break. When will I finally overcome you, my friend. I'm tired, every goals seem to be useless as times go by.    Stay strong buddy, just keep going. - Your thoughts

Friends I really shouldn't be stress out about them. I really appreciate and treasure them, but sometimes I feel like I'm just holding on too tight. "True friends lasts forever, they will Still come back no matter what." That's what I thought. That's what I really want. But sometimes it just seems like my friendship with anyone isn't going to last long, no matter how hard I want it to last. All I ever think of is how to please them and make them feel happy. Even if that means I can't do what I want and say what I truly want to say. Even if this means to just nod your head all the time and agree. Even if that means to keep your "nos" in you since you're too afraid that they'll hate you for it. I've never been so stressed out about friendship until I met these gems, no hate, just dilemas. Stay strong buddy, just keep going. - Your thoughts

Controllability I feel like even if you work so hard for something you want badly, sometimes things just won't happen the way you want it to be. "Work hard and you'll get it!" "Hard work pays off!" "Keep trying until you get it!" All these encouragement from people but does hard work really do you a favor? Does hard work really get you to your dreams or goals? Things just seems so much complicated nowadays. Stay strong buddy, just keep going. - Your thoughts

Maybe, just maybe Maybe things aren't that bad after all, maybe sometimes you'll just catch a glimpse of a rainbow at your worse state. Being able to get over your mistake is probably one of the most satisfying thing. Being able to tell yourself that you're okay then feel the same way is really an achievement. After all you're in control of your own happiness. Stay strong buddy, just keep going.   - Your thoughts

Things just don't get better No matter how optimistic i get, things just don't go the way i wanted or as planned. But what can i do but sit around and feel like i am in no control of my outcomes. Stay strong buddy, just keep going. -  Your thoughts

Failure I tried so hard to resist. Told myself I can do it, but in the end, things just got worse. Half of the day it would be filled with positivity, but the other half? The complete opposite. How can I even get through this? The pain of telling myself everyday it'll get better, but in the end I'm just repeating my mistake. I want to get better, to gain victory by defeating this tough battle. And soon enough I'll be in control of me and not my let temptations control me. - Your thoughts

First time in forever. This isn't my first time blogging. I started to blog when I was a kid? Back then, all I did was to rant and vent anger, in the most inappropriate way ever, and this blog is filled with vulgar. And nope, I was not one bit proud of it. All in all, it was wrong for me to do that, however, as I recall, I was a much happier person back then, I didn't had to cry for the most trivial matters, now all I do is to try and reach my standard to what i perceived as perfection. And this brings to the point of this blog, which is to pen in whatever I'm feeling, be it when I'm sad or happy. If this really works for me, this would be like a safe haven for me. Then I won't have to feel bad for anyone, that needs to hear me rant over the same issue countlessly. Stay strong buddy, just keep going. - Your thoughts