Just some thoughts and feelings

Naive Why am i so stupid? Stupid enough to believe everything.  Stay strong buddy, just keep going. - Your thoughts

Wishful thinking Ever looked at someone and say, "Damn. He/she is so perfect". Like you could spend the whole time with them and it wouldn't be dull and boring. Ya'll be talking for hours, yet not feel tired. I really wish i could spend everyday with you, listening to your silly stories, just you sharing everything to me make me feel things. Your smile, your eyelash and your lil laughter really just make me wanna make time stop, just so i could stare at you without you noticing. Would you still be there in the future? Stay strong buddy, just keep going. - Your thoughts

Feelings I really wish i didn't meet you. Who knows i'd like you so much. How we kind of stood so near, how you laughed at shit i say or did. Your laughter really tops it off. You know it was times like this that i wished i was prettier. that way, i can confidently go after you. And it was times like this that i really wished that i was cool or popular enough so at least i am worthy to be someone special for you.  Now every moment, i'd think about you. Even though it was just the first day, so much feels have developed for you. I am such a fucking weirdo and a creep.    Stay strong buddy, just keep going. - Your thoughts

Same old shit Time after time, still the same thing, over and over again. I'm sick and tired of this. When can this stop. Started out so determined and confident. Then end up being beaten up by it. When will I ever learn that it's ok to just let me have a little break. When will I finally overcome you, my friend. I'm tired, every goals seem to be useless as times go by.    Stay strong buddy, just keep going. - Your thoughts

Friends I really shouldn't be stress out about them. I really appreciate and treasure them, but sometimes I feel like I'm just holding on too tight. "True friends lasts forever, they will Still come back no matter what." That's what I thought. That's what I really want. But sometimes it just seems like my friendship with anyone isn't going to last long, no matter how hard I want it to last. All I ever think of is how to please them and make them feel happy. Even if that means I can't do what I want and say what I truly want to say. Even if this means to just nod your head all the time and agree. Even if that means to keep your "nos" in you since you're too afraid that they'll hate you for it. I've never been so stressed out about friendship until I met these gems, no hate, just dilemas. Stay strong buddy, just keep going. - Your thoughts

Controllability I feel like even if you work so hard for something you want badly, sometimes things just won't happen the way you want it to be. "Work hard and you'll get it!" "Hard work pays off!" "Keep trying until you get it!" All these encouragement from people but does hard work really do you a favor? Does hard work really get you to your dreams or goals? Things just seems so much complicated nowadays. Stay strong buddy, just keep going. - Your thoughts